Need for Medication

I have started taking an anti depression medication, Zoloft, and have much hope that it will help calm my nervous anxiety and disturbing thoughts. I have extreme anxiety when I wake up each morning. I don't feel like I can take care of my girls by myself. I want to cleave onto my husband all day. I am thankful for all his help with our girls. I could not do what I do without his love, support and help.

Imprisoning

I am starting this blog to be able to express myself to others and to find some type of escape. I can trace back to my early teen years of struggling with an anxiety disorder. I have always felt insecure with myself.

I am in a problematic position now as a mother of two girls. I fear being dirty. I do not want to have any harmful bacteria, dirt or bodily waste on myself or anyone around me. I do not want to cause any harm to myself or another loved one.

I have lived before not having these fears but now it seems almost hopeless to be able to get myself back to that normal life style.